Your life is your message to the world. Make it inspiring. -lorrin l. lee

Another semester has come and gone faster than I was able to breathe, stop and blink, or even enjoy a moment of it. 20 credits now complete; but left with a sense of melancholy bittersweet feeling. The past 3-5 years of my life have become a blur. I know the message I would like to give the world; but I feel as if I have worked against myself in relaying this message. I have realized I am obsessive compulsive about staying busy. It allows me to keep my mind from growing weary and blue and dwelling on sad moments. The constant chaos that has become a storm in my mind has left me with a final realization on just how much I want life to slow down. I have lived in fast forward for far too long. Trying to make up for lost time when I went off track, changed my mind on career paths…. moved, got set back financially….. … I over indulged in school to try and shave off the extra semester. In return; I over worked my body, became ill (more than once)…. and completely ran myself into the ground. I ask; what is my message in life to the world? Work until you fall apart? If I were to look back over the past year— it would be most evident that is what I was saying. However, that is not my message in life to the world.

I want my message in life to be along these lines:

1.Enjoy each moment in life. Embrace the messes, the unfortunate blessings. It is what makes us who we are in the end.

2.Smile each day. Look in the mirror and admire the person you are and how far you have come.

3.Spend less time on trying to fix everything in the world and fix yourself.

4.Do your best to be a very kind, loving, appreciative person to each and everyone–no matter their demeanor.

5.Look around you–Take a picture in your mind of the beauty of nature. Enjoy it. Get lost in it.

6.Do not over schedule your self. Life is far too short to take away from your health, your family, and the ones important to you. Nothing is worth the risk of those things.

7. Embrace pain and find the beauty within the disaster.

8. Trust few people. Many will fool you.

9. Laugh often.

10. Start a bucket list and get to work on crossing those things off.

I have a lot to say. Much of it feels trapped inside. This year has been long, chaotic, dreary at times, and extremely difficult. I made sure to test on how hard I could push myself. I am proud of my accomplishments, but disappointed that I don’t remember enjoying it much because I was always too buried in school work. My message in life for this year is: Slow down. Embrace life. Smile lots. Laugh often.

I have been accused in life of being selfish and for walking out on things for obtaining a degree in something that makes me happy. And because it makes me happy I am “doing what I want”. I apologize to everyone who feels this way or is made to feel this way by another. I choose happiness over money. I will not settle and be unhappy every day I wake up and go to work—- I am going to die being happy by doing what I love. This is not selfishness. Life is too short to be miserable and we are the ultimate holders of our own happiness. I just choose to do something about it. I choose a career that I will enjoy in payment for Happiness.

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.

By : Groucho Marx

The ending of this academic year is bittersweet. I am not looking forward to returning in the fall much. However, I am so close to completing my degree. When this is all over and done; I hope you are all ready for one big party because we will be celebrating.

Summer feels as if it has already been scheduled for me. This is not ok. I am working on slowing down and breaking the habit of being too busy. I want to remember something.

Congratulations to all my fellow colleagues of BSU! You will be missed in the fall! The Art Department will surely NOT BE THE SAME! 😦

Love and Peace Friendships!

Shanna Mae.