The only things constant in life; is Change.


Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all!!! Also a very Happy Birthday Jesus! What a great Christmas holiday with all of my family. It was wonderful to be able to spend time creating more memories with all of my family. I got to see a lot of family this weekend.

I’ve been blessed with amazing family and friends. Regardless of being sick; I have made the most of every moment I was given. I have also been doing a lot of reflecting on life over the weekend and preparing for an art show at Bad Cat. I have a lot going on in my mind right now and my focus isn’t doing much for me at the moment. I have been working through out the holiday as well. I just find myself more frustrated than anything.

So many things to do. So many things to figure out about life. So many things going on. I question myself as to when I will stop doing this to myself. I seem to find myself doing a lot of things and then the chances I have to really take a break and focus on my own things; on my own time with out being rushed or pressing time–I seem to forget the opportunity for a real “break” from the outside world. I think I have been running myself for too long that I have neglected my own health and I have worn myself out more than I have known until now.

I function way better under pressure and when I have a lot to do (ie; juggling school, work, child, business). I don’t quite understand. Maybe because my brain doesn’t have time to wonder, rather than to keep going and move on the the next goal.

Every year at this time; I like to reflect on the past year to revisit the various things I have had the chance to experience, lessons learned, the good, the bad, happy and sad, etc. This past year was very eventful. Some things I hold locked within my heart; and probably will never be shared.

The year 2010 created many memories. It had its share of pain and sorrow. An over worked mind and body. A beaten down into the ground body and mind. A shattered soul. A teathered heart. A journey down a road less traveled. One full of excitement and fear for unknown. Don’t get me wrong; there was also many moments of laughter and joy and an abundance of memories created! This year taught me a lot of things. It has shown me things and helped me grow. For everything and part of 2010; I am thankful and blessed to have had the chance to experience.

I have had a difficult time lately. Sorting thoughts. Feeling complete; in a sense. Life has been crazy. For everyone.  And alls I can say is; Thank you Lord, for all of the friends and family you’ve blessed me with because I am not so sure I would have been able to get to this point if I did not have them and if it weren’t for you. Happy Birthday!

I really need to get some sleep now. I have much more to post and probably need to start writing things on paper so I can stop forgetting them as soon as I sit down to write a post. Anyways; tonight’s post was mainly to wish all of my dear friendships a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I am off to sleepy time land.

Good night.

Love & Peace.
Shanna Mae

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5 days until Christmas


Wow, where has all of the time gone? Life has decided to just fly. It is unbelievable.

I have been extremely busy with school and Halle. We were blessed with a few bumps in the road. I say blessed because I do not think of them as negative bumps. I think of everything as a blessing. Because I was blessed to have been able to experience these various bumps and in return they have strengthened me as a person, my soul, as a mother, as a student, as a creative entrepreneur, artist, and even an employee. My limits for my body, mind, and soul have been pushed and pulled to the extremes this past year. I am excited to smile at the strides I have made in life as a mother, daughter, and person. Every time I try to explain this to another– I find myself at a loss for the right words. What I have experienced has left me speechless. There were times I felt I couldn’t go on. There were times I felt paralyzed and vulnerable. There were times I felt helpless. But there were also those times that I felt God carry me through those rough times and I thank Him every day for the ways He has worked through me and for all He has blessed me with (good and bad).

I have accomplished a lot of goals this year. I have also had some left unaccomplished. I am slightly disappointed at some points but when I reflect back on the last 4 months I have experienced; I am at ease and peace knowing how much I did do and accomplish. I wish I had more time to dedicate to my health and well being these past four months. However; I have already started my 2011 New Year’s Resolutions. I will share those closer to the New Year.

I have manifested in the Christmas spirit and have decorated in the very little time I have had. I have fulfilled my daughters wish list (most of what I could). I have listened to all of the Christmas Specials while doing homework and working myself into the ground. I have started hand made gifts for my family and have just under 5 days to complete all of my stuff. Even though, this time has past by so fast– I have still enjoyed it. The very little I have had to enjoy it.

I am so excited for Christmas! I cannot wait to see my daughters face when she opens all of her gifts and when she wakes up to her stocking from “Santa”. But I am also excited to CELEBRATE! Jesus is the reason for the Season! Most of us fail to remember this and it crushes my heart. But to each it’s own. I hold nothing against any one and I have love for every one. However; that won’t stop me from remembering and Celebrating. I am going to laugh, and cry, and smile, and pray, and think back on this year, and enjoy all of the memories I have created and are blessed to have this holiday season. This year has been beautiful. Despite the stress, the pain, the hurt, the worry, the illnesses, and medical conditions we have been blessed with. This year has been beautiful. You ask why? I tell you this is why. … because I have survived the storm. I have completed a semester of 18 credits. I have survived and grown as a mother on my own. Because, Because, BECAUSE–of my amazing family and friends and God. The continuous support I have received and continue to received and for all that never gave up on me this semester. For those who believed in me. For those who helped me to see who I am, who have pushed me harder, who have never failed to love me at my worst.  I am blessed and thankful and grateful for everything in my life!

I remember a year ago this time. It was a very tough time. I was a VERY different person. I was crushed, and torn, and I was nothing. I had no self worth, no self confidence, no nothing. But I didn’t give up. I pushed harder. P.U.S.H.- Pray.Until.Something.Happens and even after do so.  And never forget to Thank Him. Always listen.

I want to write a book about the things I have experienced and the feelings I have felt from the past 26 years. I hope some day– those words will flow out.

I have been so blessed. I am blessed. I love all of you who have stood by me. Who have understood me; even when I made no sense. Who have never stopped pushing me. To all of you; Thank you!

One goal I have created: To stay on top of this Blog.

Happy Holidays to all of my dear Friendships! I hope you all have a blessed and happy holiday cheer with your families.

Love and Peace, Friendships!

Always,

Shanna Mae

PS. First Friday January 7, 2011

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the secret of getting ahead is getting started…


“The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one.“

~Mark Twain